Life's A Party

This is another one of those poems I've written which I intend to turn into a song since I already have a tune in mind for it. I'm starting to feel that most of my later works were done when I was heartbroken, haha. Anyway, I hope you enjoy reading this. 

LIFE'S A PARTY

I'm not really living, I'm just alive, breathing

Well, don't you get it, you took the fun out of life

Can't even fake it, my smile used to reach my eyes

I kinda miss it, laughing hearty till I cry

I've tried to smile at life

Hoping it would smile back

Instead, it winked and turned

And left me feeling like crap

I used to think life's a party, well, it was

Until the sun came out and the music stopped

Strangers leaving, trash everywhere to parking lot,

empty bottles, paper cups

Everyone's gone, you're gone, now I'm left to clean all this mess up

I should've gotten myself too drunk, 

I should have gone out of control

I can't believe I'm saying this, I know it's all too late to wish

But hangover would have felt loads better than this

I don't really have a life, I'm just alive, feeling

Really, come on, who am I kidding, I'm just numb

How can I move on, need a push not just a nudge

Can't get my game on, my mind's blank, I'm just plain dumb